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13 Jan

This date has always remind of my first date with the girl I loved most in my life, today 13 jan 07 I am in Durham, England celeberating vipul's last dinner with us being bachlor, we had an excellent dinner at Manas kitchen then we went to loveShak to get the maximum out of this night and make a memorable night for Vipul. On the way back we sung all the connubial songs and my voice oh God ... that was definetely quite a memory I really enjoyed ... and after a while Nikhil got pissed and for the first time I saw the other side of Nikhil, he indulge in an argument with another friend which probably freaked them out ... then he realized that what happen was not right. I felt that he was so upset on what he did but he couldnt do anything about it. But thats part of life it happens at times but overall it was an addition of a good memory of my life at Durham.

A memory of York!!!

Talkin abt york never planned to go there... but because i was being ordered I had to be part of gang... before that I was already very down ... lot many things were in my mind i had to do ... wanted to be alone for a while where no one talks to me and I dont have to talk to any one... then I thought probably being surrounded by friends will might help to get out of it ... I was thinkin the same all the way to the station ... we were standing there I was lookin into the eyes of each and every one ... on that instance i felt that each one of us has lot to say there eyes were saying a lot to me ...probably no one was contented as if they were going with the flow ... there are things in life which a person cant do much about it... though you are the one who has choosen the path on your own with a hope life will treat you better but each time I feel that I was worsen off ...then sitting in a train got an oppurtunity to talk to a brit. girl seems to be very cool ... with straight hairs ... big brown eyes ... was reading a book seem to be very intellegent... on the way to the york I talk to her about different topics and there was a moment where our eyes met ... and from that moment I couldnt utter a word till york arrive and neither she did...I dont know what happened but I thought being down and showing off others will not do any good ... need to do something that will become a memory for all of us and when ever they will remember this trip ... every one should laugh and I did all the stupidity and what not which one can think of just to make them laugh ... I heard that to crack a joke and to laugh on others is easy but to make a fun of yourself to make others laugh is not easy... and I tried all day hard to do that and in the end I dont know about others but I myself felt good going on to that trip.

I am Back

It has been years that I have written anything on this blog and probably I intentionally didnt write anything because I was afraid of being laughed by others but now I feel this is the only way i can talk to myself ... as there are times where I want others to understand me, but not neccessarily others will ... so its better to talk to yourself instead of living in fear, so I am back to blogg...

There is an email !!!!

Wait... waiting ... will wait for u ... plz wait ... these words are used quite oftenly n i dont think no one has ever heard of it ... either one is saying it or listening it. One night I was waiting for something ...n that some thing was an email while i was waiting I was thinking how 1 feel about life when you are waiting for something desperately, I felt that life has paused, every thing has stopped, it just me waiting for that email to come. Intentionally or not intentionally my eyes were following that Internet explorer page where I can see out of curoisity that stupid email has is there or not ... even though I knew that there is no new email but even then i was clicking the Inbox button to check for new email but it was not there and again the process started of waiting ... I felt that life has stopped there no clicking of clock ... you are alone in this world where life is standing in the middle of highway waiting waiting waiting ... I again clicked to see probably there is a reply hopefully the time to wait is over but nothing again ... then i took off from my bed to see what is happening out side ... I realized that every thing in this world is waiting ... night is waiting for a morning ... clouds are waiting for a wind to move... autumn is waiting for a spring ...cigrette is waiting to be an ash... beginning is waiting for an end and life is waiting for a death... so am i... the word waiting is now killing me ... and there is a sound of a pop up on msn ... there is an email.... hurray my wait is over ... opened the email but there was nothing mentioned that i was waiting to see and I replied ... fuck again I have to wait... for a stupid email and I realized this is a vicious cycle ... and i am part of it. Nothing can be done the only thing is wait.

Man is a knot into which relationships are tied ~Antoine de Saint

Allah has given us such a dynamic personality that whenever we meet strangers, get into interaction and seems to have connections in same time or in different times. Our relationships has already been transcend on human experiences. We tend to find ways, with our personnel relationships, with friends, family and acquaintances in order to make our meaning to another person in presence or in absence. Being a part of relationships is just not it, it need more than that. Distance and period of absence is the intrinsic part of the relationship as with the distance you tend to realize the importance of the person in your life. It can be either way distance can also make the other person being attracted to another one. Either way depends on the degree of relationship and mutual understanding between you and your friend or between any one.

The understanding that we have with our friends helps us to over come the hiccups that occurs in occasionally or in our daily life. Our commitment helps us to solve the misunderstanding with an orientation of understanding. Disagreement is a threat itself to a friendship but it is a part of its development and a process of getting know each other. To develop the understanding is one of the difficult tasks but in order to have a firm relationship it is very necessary. To create an understanding is long and time requiring procedure but it has very healthy and fruitful results. Our emotions is always transcends the word we speak. To be close to some one doesn’t require the co- presence of the other person but also it’s hard to believe that to get close to some one with non physical means only. It’s the commitment and trust that makes the relationship tie in a strong knot.

When we have close relationships we tend to have an emotional attachment tend to be more loyal, try and understand the others feeling and position. Emotional attachment is good for the relationship but to extend, excessive emotional attachment leads to possessiveness which can be drastic for the relationships.

I have tried to write some proximity which we all understand but failed to notice. Every single relationship is based on the communications, interpersonal relationship, mutual understanding, commitment and trust.

In the end, I would like to enlighten some thing which I always have faced and seen that every relationship has some lacking and we can always resolve them but there is only one way that is communications.

DREAMS UNLIMITED

My understanding to the dream is the feeling or series of scenes that comes in the mind of the sleeping person and the person has no hold on them … but what about the day dreaming … or the fantasies…

Well fantasies always give pleasure … when I was young I used to fantasize about my future life … about my present life … how it can be better … but those were unrealistic…

A dream to lot of people is unrealistic … and to me … is a goal to achieve some thing … because I believe that if u don’t have a dream to do some thing … then u will never achieve some thing … I think that If u dream something … and u have a passion to achieve it … and if u work hard to achieve it … there is no obligation that u will reach there … only if they are realistic.

It's just a thought

What is thought? Why we think? These thoughts come by themselves … or we give them invitations… Sometimes when these thoughts come in my mind... They bring lot of pain with them … when ever I think about myself it always bring sorrows … what I m doing … what I have done in past … I have spoiled lot of things … I don’t know … one of my friends think that it is because I think from my heart … but it is necessary some times to think from your heart … yes I do follow my heart … cause it is necessary for me … u tell me … when u think about your love life what would u do … think from mind …ahhhh… if yes … then u will always fall … when ever mind interfere in love connection … it will always bring frustration and you find shiver in every step you take … its true

Another question that arises is why past don’t leave us alone … why all the time thoughts of the past strikes. They blow my heart and all the sorrows again gather around me. I want to forget the past, and more I run from them, faster they follow. They make me remind of the times which I never want to remember. Those times were full of the distress, the painful days, when I was alone, no one with me … neither my parents nor any friend… oh Allah … help me … I have lot of mistakes in my past … I do regret on them … but those are already done … I cant help it only I can regret … but this is not enough … I have to pay the price … even for the mistakes which I haven’t done.

Even this was not enough, thoughts of the future gather around me like clouds of anguish… I don’t know my future… what’s gonna happen
Who knows … but still when I think about it … inside of me shot a question on my face that the path I am following is that right … or I am loosing my track of life … I don’t know I m afraid… because it is not only my future … it is the future for all those who are linked with me … or those who gonna linked with me … have I done what I was expected … when I look back … I regret for another wrong decision …
Why all the time this happened to me … I wish I would had some one at that time to understand me, guide me to the right direction but it didn’t happened … and I found myself as one of the followers, those who were looking for the better future…

I am ending my thought by contradicting my saying that if humans stop thinking there life would stop… if thoughts have bad side then there is good side too… its just a thought.